Energy

First of all, I really don't know why the title of this post is that. *points upwards*

Second, I know I have been quite busy for a long time that I forget to do some of the most important things in my life which includes to write and reminisce. *sighs*

Third, to make up for my long absence, I'll write a loooooong post. I mean it. *sticks tongue out*

Drat. Freaking, freaking drat.

I have been so (as in really, really) busy for the past few weeks. We have had so many requirements to submit on time and they all come crashing down like "Aaaaaaaaah!". Seriously though, it has really been a rough quarter for me and my classmates. All of us were acting out of the ordinary; meaning we sleep really late and sometimes we don't sleep because of tons of projects, we refuse to eat because of the stack of assignments before us, we tend to get irritated by the simplest jokes and worst of all, we tend to forget to relax and enjoy because of the tension all around us.

To be honest, sometimes, I want to miss school just because I'm tired and fed up of all the stress it throws to me. I just want to stay home, watch the television, be online for the whole day. I want to lock myself up in my room and sleep until my eyes won't open anymore. Haha. Kidding. Well, I hate it when I have to wake up, having just barely an hour of sleep, because I have to go to school. I hate it when I need to sprinkle ice-cold water to my face just to totally wake me up. I hate it when I have to study in the service when I could just be resting or sleeping. I fudging hate it.

Anyway, Christmas is fast-approaching. I hope for nothing but the best in the season's holidays.

I just want to rest, rejuvinate, revive.

3R is all I need.

Is that too much to ask for?

Busy

I've been so busy these past few weeks. I rarely have time to blog. Aw. That's just so sad. I still have lots to do. I wish I can catch up with my "blog life" in the days to come. I'll be back to post.

In One Breath

“The world is so big that we cannot cause any harm to it at all.”

How true is this? Look at the world around you. Is this evident? Is the world really a big place that not even billions of people can cause harm to it? Is this statement still applicable to what we see around us?

The answer: no. If only all of us are careful observers, we can see that the earth is turning to a big ball of frustration and despair ▬ far from what is used to be, a place of felicity and amorousness. What had happened? What did we do? We ruined everything and instead of thinking for others, we just thought of our own selfish selves. The evidence of our wrongdoings is undeniable. Slowly, Mother Nature gives back to us what we do to her.

Global warming is only one of the many challenges that the humanity faces today. But first, what is Global Warming? It is the increase in the average measured temperature of the Earth’s surface due to excessive trapping of heat in the atmosphere. In other words, the place we live in gets warmer and warmer everyday which we don’t notice at first but feel as time passes by.

Because of this, many phenomena occur like extreme weather, floods and typhoons, and droughts and famine which will eventually lead to the destruction of some places and quite a few illnesses. These can lead to the loss of property, source of living, place to live in, or worse ▬ lives. We are already seeing changes around us. Glaciers are melting at a faster pace, plants and animals are deprived of their habitats, and there is a rapid increase of storms and hurricanes that destroy lives.

If this would go on, in the near 40 years, we could be experiencing many catastrophic consequences that are harder to tolerate than what we are experiencing now. There would be more cases of people dying. Global sea levels would rise due to the profuse melting of Antarctica and Greenland’s ice which could submerge some places like Beijing and Shanghai in China and Calcutta, India. Droughts and wildfires would occur more often, thus affecting a multitude of inhabitants in a particular place. Heat waves would be more frequent and would be more intense and because of this, many people will suffer. Lastly, more than a million species of plants and animals would be extinct by 2050.

Each one of us is a cause of Global Warming. Each one of us contributes to the destruction of the place we live in. Each one of us deprives the next generations of better futures and brighter tomorrows. But, let us always keep in mind that there’s still time. We can still solve this global environmental problem if we act together, as one. Let us learn to forget about ourselves even for just a moment. May this serve as a lesson to all of us that we should be responsible towards nature. We should take care of it so that the future generations could still see the beauty of the world and benefit from it. It is but right if we do small things everyday because someday, these will all add up and make big differences. Let us not be blind and let us not have “frog mentality” in which like frogs, we only see the danger of destroying Mother Nature if it comes all at once and not appears gradually. Hand in hand, we can do this.

Let Go

Last Friday (yesterday, because today is Saturday), while having our PE class, which fortunately and unfortunately is Arnis, I had a realization. Right after having the practical test which was Sinawali 4, I saw a dried leaf. It was there on my jogging pants. Well, the funny thing was, my first instinct is to look up to see where it came from. I saw that the trees there have many dried leaves that slowly fall to the ground.

My realization?

I realized that the trees are like people. The leaves, on the other hand, are like sad experiences. If the trees continue to bear the dried leaves in their branches, there would never be enough space for new, evergreen leaves to grow. But, if they let those dried leaves fall, there will be enough room for leaves to grow which will make it a more beautiful and attractive tree. Pretty much like humans, isn't it? If we let the heart-breaking experiences remain in our hearts and rule over us, there will never be a portion in our hearts wherein we can put all the happy memories that make us strong. On the other hand, if we let go of these lonesome experiences, there will be enough space for new beginnings and merry encounters. Learn to be brave. Life isn't meant to be mourned and endured. It is meant to be remembered and embraced. =)

Misunderstood

I really don't know why I'm writing about this. Maybe... because I was thinking so hard my mind couldn't bear it anymore. :p Kidding aside, well, I was really thinking. You know, about things. Questions... wandering around my head.

Last night, I slept restlessly. I don't know why. Maybe because I had tons of things to do... or, maybe because I was thinking again. What was it I was thinking about? Many things, actually but one thing reigns.

Why do people misjudge and misunderstand me?

Sa totoo lang, 'di ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit. Gusto mo ba malaman kung anong nangyari?

Last Friday, July 18, we had an open forum. Our main objective was to know our positive traits and negative traits. We finished at around 5 pm. Well, it went smoothly. Everything turned out well.

MAINGAY naman talaga ako. IYAKIN din. I admit, I easily cry over things. COMPETITIVE. I am. Aminado naman ako. Alam ko rin na madali akong magalit. Lalo na kapag masama ang pakiramdam ko. MAKULIT naman talaga ako. Salamat sa mga nakakaintindi. Only, when I was reading my negative traits... 3 traits stroke me the most. OA, KSP, at grade-conscious.

Oo, aminado naman ako na grade-conscious ako. Sabi naman ng nanay ko, walang masama sa pagiging GC (grade-conscious). Kasi, kung grade-conscious ka, may pakielam ka sa mga grades mo, ayaw mo ng mapapabayaan. Kaya, hindi ko naman iniisip na masama ang maging ganun. Gusto nga i-raise ng nanay ko ang topic na 'yun sa mga teachers e. Wala naman talagang masama sa pagiging grade-conscious. Basta, dapat nasa tamang lugar. 'Di ba?

One more thing, if I happen to be too much grade-conscious, it is because I'm too tired of proving myself to other people. Sa totoo lang, pagod na pagod na ako. Ok lang naman sa'kin ang ma-kumpara sa ate ko. Ayaw ko lang ng pag-uusapan ako dahil hindi ko kayang lampasan o kahit pa pantayan lang ang mga nagawa n'ya. Ano naman? Iba-iba naman ang mga tao, 'di ba? Iba kami ng ate ko. Ewan ko lang ba kung bakit ganito ang buhay ko. Magulo.

Kung OA ako at KSP, e di sana sinabi n'yo na lang sa'kin. Sana naman 'wag n'yong itago. Parang ang plastik naman kasi ng dating kung hindi n'yo sinasabi sa'kin. My mother talked to me about this. Sabi n'ya natural lang daw, kasi defense mechanism ko daw 'yun. Sana pala lahat ng tao katulad ng nanay ko, na naiintindihan ako ng buong puso. If only...

Hindi masama ang loob ko sa mga kaklase ko. Hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit hindi n'yo magawang sabihin HARAP-HARAPAN. Kailangan pa pala ng ganitong activity para malaman ko. Ano nga?

My life and experiences molded me to be what I am today... whether you like it or not, this is ME. I am willing to change. I am. The thing is, I can't change in just one snap of a finger.

I'm running out of things to say. Tears are already threatening to pour.

Sana magkaroon ako ng lakas ng loob na sabihin lahat ng 'to sa Friday. Sana... :(

(This is, so far, the only post I spoke in our vernacular. This is also, so far, the only post I showed how hurt I hurt I was already.)

Credits go to the people who understand my negative traits yet understand me with all their hearts: Raizza, Anne, Rishina, Jom, Karl, Danielle, Jessa, Thessa, Feliza, Patricia, Bianca, and all the people who I failed to mention but still helped me a lot.

Try

Someone asked me once, "Would you have still tried even if you know that it wouldn't work?"

I said:

"It's like a championship game. Two seconds left on the clock. My team is down by 1. I have the ball and I'm open for a jump shot. Should I take the shot or not? If I don't, we lose and go home crying. I guess I'll still take that shot. And if I miss the shot, I'd still cry. But it feels a lot less painful knowing that at least, I TRIED."

This quote inspires me so much. In life, we should take risks and try things. We are not made to hold back, we were never made to do so. What if everything else fails? What if? That's why it's called, "What if..."; we are never sure if it'll happen or not. We humans should take risks in order for us to know what we are capable of and what are our limitations. You... if by chance, you have the ball, would you go for it? or would you hold back and never give it a try? That's why it's dubbed "trying". We never know what will happen next in doing so. So... why not give things a try? Maybe, just maybe, all things would work out fine. :)

Like the Flowing River

I am currently reading one of Paulo Coelho's books now. I dropped by the bookstore [National Bookstore] yesterday and I decided to buy one. It's the last there is. Like the Flowing River is a collection of short stories he has either written, experienced, or stories that have been told to him by his friends. Some are his reflections while travelling from country to country. Right now, I'm just starting to read it, but, I tell you, this book is really great. :)

An Interview with God

Man: What surprises you most about humankind?
God: That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again... that they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health... that by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither the present nor the future... that they live as if they will never die and die as if they have never lived.

A friend passed this quote to me through SMS. I was so inspired and it surely made me think.


What if I was given the chance to interview Him?
What would I ask?
What would I tell Him?

Well, this quote. It's quite ironic, but it's true. I realized the following:

• We should enjoy the time that is given to us by God. We should spend it with the people we love and we should not waste it doing things that will never bring us and the people around us any good.
• We should take care of ourselves. We should value our health more than our work, studies, chores, etcetera.
• We should focus in the present. Forget the past and dream for the future.
• We should not rush ourselves. We should always remember that we live for the present and time will come for our future.
• We should make every moment in our lives worthwhile because we only borrowed it from God and it is really kind of Him to lend it to us.
• We should always remember this: "It is always better to die for something than to live for nothing."

We only have one life, so we better live it well. :)

6 Days

The post title... you might be wondering. Actually, that means that only 6 days are left of my precious vacation. Sad, right? Oh, well... true. It's sad that it's about to end where in reality, I am just beginning to enjoy it. Ironic. Haha! On Friday, June 13, we will finally know our sophomore year families. I'm so excited! I hope this will be a good year for all students. Oh, and, by the way, today, June 10, is first day of classes for some students all over the country. Good luck to them. I hope they met new friends. :)

Also, today is the birthday of my cousin, whom, I have considered as a blood-related sister ever since I first knew how to recognize people:

Happy Birthday, ATE DENILLE!
We wish you all the best! :]

Before I forget, I would also like to greet my "Tatay" who has been always there for me in the first eight years of my life and had passed away half a decade ago:

Happy Birthday, TATAY BEDING!
We miss you so much.

Summer Ends

Once again, the title explains itself. I can't believe that summer is nearing to an end. Actually, I'm just beginning to enjoy it. Aw, that's just too sad. Anyway, as you might probably have guessed, this summer is filled with memories. Thank God I have my handy camcorder with me everywhere I go! :) Oh, come on. Read between the lines! Haha! :]]

That was me. I can't believe I played basketball. Haha! It's not my type of thing but I did so, anyway. My parents were telling me I was good. :p I was more athletic than they have thought. What a nice way to boost your daughter's confidence, right? :))

That was me and my aunt. We dropped by Taal Church after visiting my cousing who gave birth last May... err... I can't remember! :p He was such an angel! Haha! Taal Church is really a nice place. ;)

Now, that's me and our dog, Minie. :)

Now, this is me with my three cousins. As far as my brain tells me, this is, so far, the only photo I have with the four of us together. :p

My cousin's baby! Wonderful, isn't he? The name's Jhune Raphael. :D

This is all that I could post for now. So, until here. :]