I just had a really bad mornight. *Sorry for using it, it's just my own word.* Actually, if you might be reading the time this was posted, you'd be wondering why it's not a "mornight" when I posted this. Actually, I don't know how can I change the time here. I think it's the US time. Now, it's 2:16 in the morning and I have not been showing any signs of sleepiness and tiresomeness. Is there such a word? Haha. Oh well, I hope you don't mind reading the rest of this. I just got really pissed off and all I can do now is write, write, write... so, here goes...
I was actually enjoying my time BEFORE it happened. I actually cried! I just can't believe it! All my efforts have gone down to the drain. What the darn [This is an intejection, not a form of any arrogance.] is happening to me?! Okay, I was REALLY MAD AT MYSELF FOR SIGNING IN!! I actually signed in in YM! I can't believe it, and, as life is harsh at times, he's actually online, too. So, casual conversation! He even mentioned that I wasn't talking to him for a while. Good thing he noticed it! Oh, and if by chance you read this, please, I'm begging, please just go away. Turn your back from me. Please face the other way. Okay, back to the topic. He asked me if I was fine, how is life, how's love treating me. Oh well, I would have probably guessed that he's too NUMB! Actually, I was smiling all the time, in our IMs, but I WAS CRYING!! I WAS!! I WAS!! This is so not me. I should have not cried if he didn't talk to me. My life could've been normal! Look what he did, he made me start all over again. I can't really blame him. I don't know! Is it my fault? Is it my fault that something inside me has still a something for you? IS IT? TELL ME! Please... I want a normal life. I want to forget everything between us. I want to move on, I want to have new and fresh starts and beginnings, but, to be honest, I mean, to be really honest, and no hard feelings, how could I? How could I if you're there, how could I if we still have communication? I don't know what to do... what the heck. I think my brain is already misfunctioning.
I just want to get over him. Is that too much to ask? IS THAT? :(
I was actually enjoying my time BEFORE it happened. I actually cried! I just can't believe it! All my efforts have gone down to the drain. What the darn [This is an intejection, not a form of any arrogance.] is happening to me?! Okay, I was REALLY MAD AT MYSELF FOR SIGNING IN!! I actually signed in in YM! I can't believe it, and, as life is harsh at times, he's actually online, too. So, casual conversation! He even mentioned that I wasn't talking to him for a while. Good thing he noticed it! Oh, and if by chance you read this, please, I'm begging, please just go away. Turn your back from me. Please face the other way. Okay, back to the topic. He asked me if I was fine, how is life, how's love treating me. Oh well, I would have probably guessed that he's too NUMB! Actually, I was smiling all the time, in our IMs, but I WAS CRYING!! I WAS!! I WAS!! This is so not me. I should have not cried if he didn't talk to me. My life could've been normal! Look what he did, he made me start all over again. I can't really blame him. I don't know! Is it my fault? Is it my fault that something inside me has still a something for you? IS IT? TELL ME! Please... I want a normal life. I want to forget everything between us. I want to move on, I want to have new and fresh starts and beginnings, but, to be honest, I mean, to be really honest, and no hard feelings, how could I? How could I if you're there, how could I if we still have communication? I don't know what to do... what the heck. I think my brain is already misfunctioning.
I just want to get over him. Is that too much to ask? IS THAT? :(
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