Past. Not my present. Never my future.

This post is very special. I would like to tell you a little something about this guy I know really well even in just a short span of time. He's special to me. He's actually a guy close to perfection. Looks, brains, attitude. You won't search for someone anymore. He's a good friend and he has always been a thoughtful "kuya" to me. He would always make me smile. He would always ask if I was ok. He would always make me feel happy. He would always comfort me whenever I'm down in the dumps. He's a really good person. He has a heart of gold. He's exactly what you would want as someone who would take care of you.

I hurt him. I hurt him a lot. He hurts. He hurts. But, what can I do? I am completely in love with someone else. I just can't fall in love with him because I'm in love with someone else. I'm so sorry. :(

I'm so sorry, Charles Allen. If you happen to read this, I want to apologize if you're hurting because of me. I want you to know that you're a really great person and you're not hard to fall in love with. You're actually someone I'd really like to take care of me. It's just that... you know I love him. I'm really sorry.

I know it's pathetic to put this here. But, these times, it's all I can do since I can't talk to someone about this matter. It's all about me, me, and me.

Charles Allen, you're really special to me. You are, believe me.